Went to optometrist to check my vision. It's still near-perfect. Looks like one of my eyes is a bit lazy on adapting thus it may happen that I see a bit worse with that one, but even than my vision with it is better than for the most people. Curiously enough that's the eye that's always further from my screen which I`m embracing for 12hours a day. I`m a living evidence that our digital screens don't affect our vision as much as our parents would like to think.

tl;dr Computers can't do a shit against my superior vision.

I`m putting in some effort to change myself a bit and as a result today I bought some new clothes that actually are not black. Well, the pants are kind of greyish, underpants are plaid in grey, darkbluewhite and solid green and my two hoodies are plaid blackwhite and blackpurple.
I`m too lazy to take pics and nobody cares anyway.
My new pants don't go along with the damn purple hoodie at all, but oh well whatever, the important thing is that I tried. Not that I care about how fashionable I look anyway...
The most fun thing about everything is that I didn't check the damn sizes and now I will be forced to go back to the store and swap them again. The downside of not having a girlfriend anymore with whom to shop - she always remembered to check the sizes.

Because I`m so demanding when I judge people weather to let them closer to me or not, I sometimes think that if I could ever bring together everyone I ever had prolonged contact with, they all would be the damn best friends to each-other. And yet I would still be the one who would stay unnecessary, lonely, the outsider, the odd one.
Funny how that works, that weather we have friends or don't never depends on how good of character judges we are or how even on how other people view us - it always depends on how hard we want and try to fiend friends.

I don't get this crap at all. 4 years in prison and the whole life destroyed for that? Seriously? World is fucked.

The tutorial of how not to...

I went and did it...I am oficially not a student anymore !
Well, that's the main message of today at least.

Lately I have been keeping this blog kind of silent the main cause of which was that I was feeling like shit. I still do. However, taking in note that this blog was created as my student's blog and obviously now it has lost its purpose, I decided to make this blog my bullshit_i_want_to_share blog as of now. Share with whom? - idk, probably google as that's the only friend I have at the moment o.O

Oh, yeah, atm I have nothing much to share, as I`m currently living in my past with the excuse that I have no future and there is nothing going on in my present.

Picture related: it's the artists impression of the amount of fucks that will ever be given over all this, as well as an accurate description of my present and future.

Somehow I think that drinking a bottle carbohydrated water for a week accelerated my metabolism. I know that most people would consider it awesome, as fast metabolism is a sign of healthy body, but not me - I have never before in my life had felt so hungry or had to urinate so often. I am perfectly fine with eating one or two big meals a day and accordingly using the toilet twice or thrice a day. Wasting so much time on these things is a torture for me.

Lately I have been getting some confusing dreams. Confusing in the sense, that they are extremely close to reality. I dream some little things, like changes in someones schedule that affect my schedule as well, so I have to remember to be at a certain place at a certain time. After waking up it actually takes some time for me to get clear, weather it was just a dream or a genuine memory. I wonder what's causing it. And I`m a little afraid that one of these days I will take one of those dreams for reality and end up doing something stupid.

Supposedly I had a free day today. Supposedly... I`m on my legs since I woke up, still have stuff left to do and I feel beaten dead. Thank God work is never as hard as stuff we have to do in our free time.
No, I won't be writing what I was busy with the whole day, because I`m too tired to write a report of 4 pages.

Back from my first real day of work. It feels amazing to work again, even better than I thought it would. Now I just have to get over that annoying phase where I`m just learning how to properly do stuff and I will actually start liking my work place.

P.S. Made tons of mistakes, hopefully nobody will notice them. (wishful thinking)

My job intro is finally over, that is, the official training part is finally finished and on Monday I will start picking up calls. My test results weren't all that bad, so obviously I do have all the necessary knowledge, I just hope I will manage to use it as well. Not everyone can multi-task at a level that requires you to simultaneously: talk (in foreign language included), solve problems, work with computer and lead a conversation being as polite and professional as humanly possible. And even if I do manage that, there is also the question of combining my work with studies.
I`m not complaining, I`m just being realistic and those won't be easy few months ahead of me.

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In other news, today I have a day off and my ex-girlfriend promised to come over (in exchange for some pancakes, lol). A change of scenery in my everyday life won't hurt me at the moment.

Also: I need a goddamn washing machine, how do I get to one for free?

Mondays....

Wow, what the hell...just got an invite in facebook from one of the few guys I have been trying to forget since I left the school. Never had I imagined that I will be forced to deny an invite on facebook. Maybe I care about my f-list a little more than I previously thought.
Well, this is a really bad start for a day...and a week.

Wow, I`m retarded

Today on my way home I decided to buy some cheap earphones for my galaxy mini...and I did it... I bought some random generic Panasonic earphones and I completely forgot that mobile phone ones actually should have a mic on them.
Well, 5 lats successfully wasted. Good job.

The information confidentiality policies are putting quite a strain on my ability to learn software and policies required for my profession. I`m used to studying on my own and doing the tedious stuff at my own pace, be it sometimes faster or slower than for the others. The additional work I do at home or when I`m free to to do as I please is my way of compensating for every drawback of mine. But these damn policies are not letting me do as I please and so I`m forced to do everything exactly where they put me and according to the schedule they decided upon.
But oh well, essentially It's my own problem and it's what I myself signed for. Will just have to find way to adapt. Now hopefully I`m not wrong this time and I am indeed good at adapting.

Reminder for self: Get your goddamn ambitions back on the ground !

Yep...mondays...they're back...

FRIDAY !!!

Aside from the success of surviving till the weekend  through my first work week (well, sorta work), today I received my Samsung Galaxy Mini. Tried it out a little bit, can't say I could complain about anything so far. I just wish I could find some decent games or applications for it...most of the popular stuff is actually complete crap. But oh well, whatever. The good stuff will probably find me on its own eventually.
I wonder if I have to do anything else besides owning an android to become a member of the android club?

There are just way too many mini-skirts and wonder-bra's (or breasts as such) on the street. It's just too much for me to take. Especially since it has been more than a year since I last had s

Yeah, completely forgot to report in after my first day at "work". Currently we are being trained and the training will last for 3 weeks. Nothing really special to report about stuff that has happened so far, just that my impression about the company still hasn't been tarnished. I do think that I should be able to deal with my future job obligations once the training is finished, I`m a bit worried about my Russian though. But will see...
Also, I don't really want to sound prejudiced or pretentious (crap, can't find a fitting translation for the Latvian "ārišķīgs"), but I`m astounded at how many good looking people are working as phone operators or..well...office workers in the company. Not like there is something wrong with it, it's just not how you usually imagine your average office-worker-phone-operator. Of course, there are some fuglies and a little overweight people as well, it pretty much proves that they do not really look at that when picking their workers, came out like that...

After revisiting an old social site I used to spend my time on, I got reminded of a quite nice song I had completely forgotten about.

And yes, I do watch Bleach (the anime in the clip), but I choose the AMV not because of that but quite simply because that's the best video available for that song.

2 and a half hours, for f---s sake ! That's how long I was standing in a line to transfer from one phone company to another. Why? Because they lured me in with a promo during which they give Samsung Galaxy Mini (and to other phones) for free*. So, about in a week I will be paying three times my phone bill and for that I will finally get a new phone. I gave in basicly because it's advantageous for me because of 2 main factors: the phone will actually be cheaper for me this way than buying a new one on credit or with cash and because I`m transferring to a company for which I will essentially be working starting from august the 1st .
Well, that's about it.


*in this case word "free" adapts the definition of elevated fees and with condition that you won't be changing phone operators and you won't stop paying the subscriber's fee in any case for 2 years (24 months)

The world is only as plain or complicated as you choose to make it.