Since my damned sweetheart is being a dumbass (not that she is, she just loves to behave like one), i resumed watching anime, browsing 4chan, reading mange etc. It's a wild world out there!

I do, however, keep watching documentaries on youtube and would like to feature some of them here. The list of the ones I watched can be found after the break.
I will admit that, for the most part, they are quite childish and elementary and I do feel like still wasting my time on nothing when watching them. I will not amount to anything with that knowledge, even if I get it all and will be able to talk about it for hours...
To add to the complete and utter waste of time, there were some good deals recently on steam games, so I bought a few game packs and couple of games I had set my eyes on before. It's hard to feature just the games I bought recently, so here is the complete list of the games I own (+Guild Wars 2) including some f2p ones.
Additionally: a little something I would like to feature from the Play Store for android. It's an app for contacts. Why? Because I did like the original contact list my Samsung Galaxy Mini had, but, unfortunately, CyanogenMod 10.1 with JellyBean has a really crappy and slow contacts apps, so I replaced it with something better.

I really do need to find a way to stop wasting my life. And money. And start exercising.
Oh fuck you, life, for tempting me with the good stuff and then coming up with all the complicated rules to acquire it.

Forgot to mention, that I did finally get my salary, only 2 days later. Turned out it really was stuck so if I would have waited any longer, I would have probably died of hunger.
Unfortunately large portion of my this months salary will go for paying off the damn water counters [?]. Their expiry date is due and thus fucking Rigas Namu Pārvalda are charging me ridiculous amounts of money. Obviously, by their count, an average person uses 10 times the amount of water I`m usually using. Fucking corrupted bunch of idiots without any idea how to properly do anything.

In another news, I`m a proud member of CyanogenMod community for a few days and my slowpoke Samsung Galaxy Mini grew a pair of data stream wings, as it seems. There are a few glitches, but no more than in the official Android releases and the gains from CyanogenMod 10 that is JellyBean 4.2 are awesome. I now have a zoom for my camera. It never had that. It's a digital one, so it's crap and I will never use it, but still a zoom.
Effectively, with that I got rid of Go Launcher. Seems it started lagging my android and eating more battery, than it ever did on Gingerbread.
Aw, I abolished Gingerbread right before Christmas.


To continue what I started today...well...yesterday already: we bought a new decent winter coat for my damn sweetheart. 80Ls. Fuck.

They are eating themselves. Yum!

What goes for Cloud Atlas, it was as boring for me as I thought, but at least I thought it would have some deeper ideas in it, something to think about when you are bored. Well...fuck. It was all about how important it is to tell the truth, to fight for the truth, to fight for freedom of speech, so we could tell truth and not be afraid. And it was laid out in a plain as possible way that every idiot could understand it. Waste of 3h, they could have just made a youtube video and include the key sentences in it. What I liked, however, was how they returned Mr. Smith. And a bit of matrix, when they started feeding dead clones to dead clones. As if they couldn't have been fed from the fast-food leftovers.

Unfortunately my evening didn't end on that negative note. My damn sweetheart is still being ignorant and oblivious to anything not considered as important by a higher authority than her. And It's driving me crazy. And I finally feel like giving up that shit.
I mean, I did change my fucking everything for her. I feel like I`m entitles to getting at least that little thing back, for her to stop and think bit, to learn to think, not just listen to whoever says whatever and blindly obey till her emotions take over and then everything flies to shit. She would be the one to get something out of it mostly, not me.
Or maybe I`m from, maybe I`m not really entitled to anything at all, maybe I didn't change myself at all and maybe that's just my fucked up emotions running wild.
Either way, it's hard to keep doing what I don't want to do, especially when there is zero motivation and nobody expects it from me. So why should I, again?

Todays plan - shoppimg for a present for my damn sweetheart and then to cinema. Most likely to watch Cloud Atlas.
Damn I could buy myself a new washing machine from the money I will spend here...

More later...

Lately feeling doomed

Regardless..

By trying out new tastes I found another nice pearl. While I`m always skeptic about anything that comes with Cyrillic letters, I did buy a drink named «ЭЛЬБРУС» and it turned out to taste quite awesome. It's not quite as cheap as most light drinks, especially since it comes in a glass bottle, but one 0.5l bottle of it quenches your thirst quite easily, in contrary to some more popular drinks that promote exactly that. I other word - worth every cent.
In shot, picture related. If you see it - buy it (I got it @ RIMI)

In another news - I`m working overtime again. Feeling a little lazy, but I need all the money I can get on my next paycheck and this is the best way to get it. Unfortunately my hours are limited, so I`m going for the maximum of 224 work hours I`m allowed. I think I`m at 206 atm, though I`m not sure, could be more.

And I changed my mind....I will not ignore, that I`m feeling doomed.
I feel like I`m stuck at working for a little over minimal wage for the rest of my life, which is probably true. It's a sad future, but if it were only about me, I could live with it. Unfortunately it isn't. My damn sweetheart is a lazy, dreaming klutz, she may become a graduate in a couple of months, but I do not believe she will be able to find a job that suits her whatever and won't be able to support herself. That's why I need to find a way to move forward without education, move forward, to be able to support myself and her. I need a new job, one that offers me more skills and bigger salary at the same time. Dammit!

OMG what a mess my room is!

Recap series - purchases

I think it was back in July, though I`m not sure. Thanks to working overtime (frigging 225 work-hours in a month, lots of night shifts e.t.c.) i got a hold of another nice paycheck and upgraded my computer a bit.

First, and most notoriously, i bought a new monitor (silly picture related) a Samsung SyncMaster S23B300. It's a decent HD LED monitor, nothing fancy, but my eyes will never see the difference between a 500bucks worth screen and a 128bucks one. Even with my perfect vision (color or otherwise).

Secondly, bought a new cooler. An ass-kicking Titan Skalli. Be sure to take a look at the package if you follow the link. It looks great, other than that - it works so good and quiet, that I never even notice it doing anything.

Lastly, I upgraded my RAM. Since i have this old_like_the_world_itself gigabyte motherboard, I went for the small upgrade from 2GB to 4GB. However, to my great disappointment, it turns out, if your motherboard is limited to 4GB, you will never be able to use more than 3GB of ram, as a goddamn 1GB gets reserved for fucking nothing I will ever need. And that's how I discovered, that I have reached my limits at upgrading my old PC and should start saving up. If not for a whole new PC, at least for a new motherboard, sound card and 16GB worth of RAM.
Disappointment of the year.

Well...at least I thought that was the last of it. A couple of weeks later, while messing with my BIOS, i managed to accidentally turn off my PC's ability to recognize the hard drive. Since my hard drive was quite old and getting glitchy at times, after some time I concluded that it died and just went and bought 500GB of empty space. Long story short: new hard drive wasn't working either and after few ours of trying out EVERYTHING i finally managed to get both of my HDDs working.

And this is what becomes of me when I don't have to worry about my next meal anymore. Spent more than 200bucks on that and no fucks were given back then.

Enough is enough

No time left, just threw stuff together so that I could photograph the overall idea of how it will look like.

No, this is obviously not a success story.
Spent something a little over my average monthly wage to buy a bed, mattress and a chair and the result is what you see. Additionally my landlord-lady sent me her old chair over.
And this is the result after spending more money than planned, waiting for a month till my bed gets made and moving furniture in a hurry so that I`m not late for work - complete fiasco.
The chair is so broken it can't be used at all. The bed is not quite what I wanted except that it's 140x200 and dark coloured. I have too much furniture in my room. And it turns out my dad witheld something from me - the price I actually paid for the bed was only for the work alone. Seems he bought materials for it, but the point is that it was overpriced as it was, now it turns out it was double so overpriced and my dad spent his last money on that luxury.
I feel like crap, my environment looks like crap and there is absolutely nothing I can do except to spend even more money to buy additional furniture to fix stuff.

Oh, yeah, that CRT is going away as soon as I have money for it. Which won't be soon as I keep giving my money away.

Fuck me if I`m going to every rely on my parents or anyone else for that matter again...

Yes, my hair is greasy as hell there

Just did a quick inspection of my shirts [?]. Yeah, it's all still black, I`m still too poor to buy new clothes for every season. And, damn, the only real, proper button shirt (or whatever people call them, I`m not really into fashion) is two sizes too big now. I remember the days when it was almost too small for me. Anyway, since it seems that these days it's in to wear clothes that are a size too small, I`m not going to wear it and will weep quietly.
The good news is that I have more clothes to wear in summer than I initially thought. So maybe I will not starve to death just so that I could go to work in a more or less presentable look.

In unrelated news - maybe tomorrow I will finally get my fucking bed delivered. Seriously, I was about to buy one at the beginning of the month, but then my dad had the genius idea to order one made without my consent or without any idea what kind of bed I`m looking for. So the plans got postponed for another two weeks and I had no idea what the bed is going to look like. Logically, two weeks passed, my dad still has no transport to deliver it to from Jekabpils and actually the bed still isn't made.
So well, yeah, another lesson in asking for someone else's advice. I have no idea why I keep actually doing that, I can't remember even one time when it actually helped. Guess it just gets too lonely to rely on yourself all the time...

Building some plans on buying a new bed and a mattress. My plan is to spend about 150 lats on that purpose so it will most probably take me about 2-3 months to spare the money. I might be able to economize a bit on the bed itself if I manage to buy a used one. Regarding the mattress, however, I`m not entirely sure weather to choose the cheaper coil mattress or a memory foam one. Logic dictates that the memory foam ones are worth the money, but then again - I can sleep anywhere, do I really care ?

160x200 size, btw. I know it's a little big just for myself, but hey - that's how I roll .

The picture - pretty much what I would love to get, but it's a bit too costy for me.

I`m putting in some effort to change myself a bit and as a result today I bought some new clothes that actually are not black. Well, the pants are kind of greyish, underpants are plaid in grey, darkbluewhite and solid green and my two hoodies are plaid blackwhite and blackpurple.
I`m too lazy to take pics and nobody cares anyway.
My new pants don't go along with the damn purple hoodie at all, but oh well whatever, the important thing is that I tried. Not that I care about how fashionable I look anyway...
The most fun thing about everything is that I didn't check the damn sizes and now I will be forced to go back to the store and swap them again. The downside of not having a girlfriend anymore with whom to shop - she always remembered to check the sizes.

Don't really want to save this to my bookmarks, so will put up a reminder here that in case if I need some reference on proper quoting and referencing I can take a look this page.

Also another reminder that I should finally get rid of this list of words to check in dictionary, so, if I will find some time this evening (which is actually unlikely), I will hopefully post the results in blog.

And 2 quick sidenotes: 1) bought an executive clipboard 2) My perspectives for the future are slowly turning to sh*t.

Did I mention that I found a new jumper at last? 15ls
To hell with it, I will start living only on potatoes, rice and pasta and oatmeal. Spending so much money is driving me mad...

Ok, printed out another page, this time about articles (under the cut - the formatting just doesn't want to stick once I upload it to google docs). I feel like I should leave the looking for new materials and properly learn what I have gathered up so far first. After that it's away to more advanced levels. It would be also nice to wrap it up till the start of next semester, as I`m planning on sharpening up my other languages - Russian and German. No idea how I`m going to do it yet, but oh well...
Also I`m trying to train my own pronounciation and transcriptions. For my basic levels this page seems to really help.

Still can't find a new jumper, most of what I`m ready to wear is way too expensive for me.

Oh, yeah, bought a new dictionary of foreign words in Latvian. Had to, since it was sold only for 2 lats.