Because I`m so demanding when I judge people weather to let them closer to me or not, I sometimes think that if I could ever bring together everyone I ever had prolonged contact with, they all would be the damn best friends to each-other. And yet I would still be the one who would stay unnecessary, lonely, the outsider, the odd one.
Funny how that works, that weather we have friends or don't never depends on how good of character judges we are or how even on how other people view us - it always depends on how hard we want and try to fiend friends.