24 April, 2014
Most of us have seen the movie Matrix, where the idea of escaping from reality was used in a pretty direct sense. Humans were made into batteries, forced to live virtual reality crated by cold, calculating machines, to keep them at bay. It begs for a question, if there is a shared dream even possible? One, where everyone would live without trying to escape. Knowing human nature, I would rather say that no, it's not. Even in the before mentioned Matrix, The Architect explained to Neo, that it was the 6th installation of Matrix, that every other had failed before, especially the first, which was essentially utopia. Why? Because humans will always want more, more of everything they can get their hands on. It's a defining trait of human nature, that's responsible for our evolution and advance, as well as the same dreams we keep living in.
I'm quite sure that we can get rid of our greed with big enough advancements in medicine, but getting rid of it would mean the annihilation of every possible further advancement. A better solution might be regulating it. However, would we stop running then? No, we would still keep escaping from ourselves.
Can we stop running at all? I shouldn't even be asking that question, because the answer is obvious - no, the moment we stop running we stop existing.
15 April, 2014
Nobody really wants to live in this world, knowingly or not. Some, the less fortunate ones, even regard to it as Hell. People escape the reality at every chance and when there is no chance given - by death. Death indeed, the last resort, the most obvious way out.
So why do we keep struggling to live in here? For hope? For happiness? Because we are afraid?
If we look at people being thorn away from this reality, we will always see fear. Fear of the unknown which is to come. Fear of the illusions our paranoia has plotted in our heads. Fear of losing what has never been ours. Fear makes its presence at every death and we fear the fear. However, it's not what holds us back from escape. Fear can be overcome and it was never there, when we first encountered life and choose not to abandon it. Fear may make us do many things, but it does not make us clinge to life.
Lucky people might agree that they live because they feel good and happy that way. On some scale it's possible, but happiness is just a measurement of hormones in your brsin. And even so, even if your brain feeds on constantly high serotonine levels, the moments of indifference, apathy, unhappiness and despair will outnumber every moment you feel good. Thus happiness is just a mechanic, evolved to fool our brain and body. At least in this world. And that were the, we would stop functioning every time we dofn't feel happy.
My choice is hope. Hope is limitless. Hope lasts to our last dying breath and where you chop down one hope, two new rise. Hope is your undying dragon that will carry your wish and see it come true. It really is the embodiment of the previous two that will always give you something to fight for, to live for.
It may not solve the quest for purpose in life. People may disagree with it. People may not even care about the why and just keep living in the moment. And it will not matter either way. Everyone has their own reason for it and it should stay that way, if we want this world to continue.
10 April, 2014
Each of us lives in a world apart from the real one. For some of us it's the world that could be, for some it's one that has been, for others it's the one that will be and for a few it's a world that could nevar be. Mostly those worlds parallel with the real one. They will never cross or become one and the same. For the lucky ones they do sometimes cross, but just for a brief moment of heavenly blessing, and then they drift apart again forever.
The worlds we live in differ from each other in their unique way. One could say, that they are always worlds apart. On one hand you have that young boyish girl, who has taken up soccer and dreams to gather a stadium full of audience, watching what she does best and cheering at every performance of splendor and skill. On the other hand you have a NEET, sitting at home, at his computer, dreaming of world were anime characters and magic was real, where everything were possible and all his bad luck would be dispelled with a stroke of a wand.
It's easy to tell what kind of phantasies are more accepted in the society and which are shunned. But where do we draw the line between what's a good and what's a bad phantasy world? Well, I don't think we should.
To draw a line, we would need to evaluate each of the dreams, but we just can't do that. Objectively all of them are of the same value for their owners. They all are just as sad and pathetic, as they are beautiful and important. They serve the same purpose and can not be denied. There can be only one subjective value system that's already in the place - how easy they can be adapted to the real world, one built by our phamtom society, one that always changes in the turmoil of time, dreams and resources.
Our society will always try to put shackles on people's thoughts and the way they develop. However knowing and understanding the truth makes you realise that you are free no matter what, because none of us lives in this world anyway. We just gather resources here, to continue living somewhere else.
09 April, 2014
Getting your first job might be still exciting as well as getting a job that you always wanted. Mainly, though, every story about getting a job is a sad story in one way or another.
Daily I see people with good education and actual brains in their head to work in a place way under their level. The same place I work in with basic highscooleducation and no particular skills. While loking for something better I always ask weather I deserve something better? Well, no, I don't. But would I do a better job than some people with higher education? Sadly, it's very much even possible.
There are also a lot of other things that make me sad while job-hunting. Like the usual requirement for people to already have experience they can't get because nobody takes them without experience. There are also a lot of places that could offee you decent salary, they promote it, but at the end they just cut off all the cornes for ridiculous requirements. There are places that, if lucky, put down an ad for something that anyway gets given to someone they know personally. Most of the time you can't even understand the criteria by which they choose people. Couple of times I applied for job in places where I would do the same damn thing I do now. Sure they didn't have education requirements put down in the ad, but obviously it was a factor since i never got a response. Then, if you get lucky, you manage to get an interview but after it they barely reply to you that you didn't get the job. And some other things I'm extremely uncomfortable to even think about.
And after all this text I still must say that I just might be extremely unlucky, as the cruel evidence of real life shows me. I can whine all I want, but people keep getting a job without much effort everywhere and they are always the same people I would like to see being overrun by a bus for how stupif they are.
05 April, 2014
03 April, 2014
I really like MMORPG genre in games, but unfortunately it eats a lot of your time. Because of that, for a time, I had switched to pure FPS till I discovered Warframe.
02 April, 2014
Sometimes it gets on my nerves how people don't understand what makes them feel happy or unhappy. It made me feel quite aggrevated listenong on two old hags @ bus stop discussing how they, when they were young, had nothing and didn't complain about it like their grandchildren.
Sure, there are people who have less and there are people who have more, yet their happiness is never proportional. It's always your environment and perception of it that makes you feel one way or another. It's better to be king of fools than the unluckiest among the lucky and blessed are the ones that are ignorant.
One way to deal with it is probably looking at people less lucky than you are. For the same reason people, who do charity work, are always a little more positive than they should be. It's a lowly method belittling others, but it does get the job done. Still it does not last and does not work on people for whome it's hard to turn off the reality switch (it's especially dangerous for these people because they can just break down in sadness and despaor, how life is unfair). Real world is always chasing after you and reminding, that you could have even more, but do not.
So how do you make someone else feel better? You make them aware that they had it better and their dreams are just fleeting everchanging hope (without mentioning it straightforward to their face, ofc.) How do you make yourself feel better? You use every opportunity to get lucky at anything at all, even the smallest things. What if it doesn't work? Well, life sucks.